I promise

I promise to be there

Even when you are not

I promise to be bare

Even if you have stopped

Especially when you have stopped

I promise to open the door

Everytime you knock

I will always be at the shore

Waiting for you round the clock

Even if you have stopped coming

Specially when you have stopped coming

I promise to cry with you everytime you are sad

I promise to laugh with you whenever I am happy

I promise to stand by you, during everything that is bad

I will always stitch it up, when things get patchy

Even if you stop paying attention

Specially if you stop paying attention

I promise to be me

I promise to never change

I promise these promises

Not in exchange

But because I believe in you and I know 

What all I have gained

From you and from your goodness

From us and our togetherness

I love you for everything that you can’t be

I promise to never push you into something that you can’t be

I promise you to keep all the promises

And whenever I couldn’t

I promise you I will try again

Till I could

Shared with OctPoWriMo  Day 19 Rhyming Verse

Silence

I tried tried and tried

But couldn’t find it

Even in my thoughts

There was no silence

Silence evades me

We sit on opposite sides

We love yet hate each other

Oh how I wish you were with me

But when you were there I never liked you

Now I call you to come to me

But if and when you come

I know I will hate you

My days, my hours, my thoughts

My life, my dreams, my world

filled with sounds and clutter

Sound of incessant laughters

And continuous cries

Noise of continuous tantrums

And hours of endless plays

My home is filled with little steps

My heart is filled with big joys

And my mind is filled with sounds

Sounds I hope are always there

Silence though I wish for

Silence though I know is imminent

But still I hope it escapes me forever

And my home, my heart is forever filled with

Little laughters, 

small prints, 

big noises and 

bigger joys

Shared with OctPoWriMo Day 14 Silence

Naked

Naked in my dreams

Falling through sky

Panting and dry

Running from wolfs

Sitting on a tree

Sinking in fire

Burning in water

I am naked in my dreams

My visions are weird

My lovers are none

My heart is bleeding

And I am running from guns

I cut and I throttle

I cry and I smother

I wear my tears

I live in my fears

And I am naked

Naked in my dreams

My follies are my thoughts

My fiends are my friends

I live in a never land

With bricks and stones to eat

I kick everyone around

And I get kicks

And I am naked

Naked in my dreams

I get on the roof

And look down

Only thing I can see

Is the dark and brown

Of my unknown thoughts

Of my bare soul

Of my stomach pit

Brown and black

Black and grey

Covered in ashes

Smeared in blood

Clenching my teeth

Gritting my guts

Wearing nothing but me

I am naked

Naked in my dreams

Dead in my sleep

Falling and dying

Sinking and running

From me

I don’t know why

I am naked in my dreams

Shared with OctPoWriMo Day#12 Shadows

Writer's note: The prompt suggested we write about our darker sides. My dreams are my darkest side...they always have been. I still call them dreams and not nightmares because I am not scared of them..may be they reflect my negetive mind frame that most of the times I refuse to acknowledge.

Wait

A long walk I walked

A thousand cries I cried

I was alone

I was lonely

A long life I lived

Waiting for you

I hoped you will come along

And sweep me off the feet

I wished you will magically appear

Soon we will meet

You will dust away the webs

And comb the wrinkled sheets

A thousand times I fell

Waiting for you

Days spent, nights burnt, years wasted

In the eternal wait

I gave up and fell on the face

feeling weak, being lost in the race

And then I knew

The wait will never be over

Because there is no wait

Because there is no one else

But there is me

And I am enough

Enough to fall down and get up

Enough to conquer the world

Without a crutch

Enough to be happy

And spread the love

I am me

I am enough

(C) Juztamom 2013

Shared with OctPoWriMo Day Three "I wrote a poem one day"

Writer’s note: This poem is reminiscent of my thoughts when I first started writing poetry years back

Lost without you

In a blind haze I run after you

You left me dry and pleading

You became me and

left me needing

I started living through you

You became my each moment

You were my time,

You were my rhyme

You filled my day and

You became my dreams

You became my voice

And you were my screams

You became me and

Left me mute

Where ever I look I see your prints

I keep hoping you are still there

But my heart sinks

Only your imprints but you are not there

I try and envision but don’t find you anywhere

You were the soul of my empty sack

You were there everywhere

In the soft chuckle

In the loud giggle

In the warmth of fingers

In sighs and quivers

In the balcony

On the table

In the kitchen

With the ladles

With the stars in the night

In the music and in the fights

You became me

And left me aching

I am lost without you

I am not alive without you

I plead and pray

For you to come find me

For you to come to me

For you to be me

My muse,

Come make me cry again

Come make my pen fly again

(C) Juztamom 2013

Shared with OctPoWriMo Day two  Hiding places