At the
stroke of midnight
I ran,
I ran
from you, from my pain, from my past
I ran
from you, from my love, from my life
I ran
from me, from hurts, from strive
I ran
From
known
To
unknown,
To
future black and bleak
Without
you crazy and weak
But
for you,
I ran,
From you
I ran
like a crazy man,
I ran
with my legs and my soul
My
legs running in all directions, away from you
My
soul entwined with you but running away from you
I ran
Your
love engulfed me
Your
eyes overwhelmed me
Your bare
soul made me weak
Your
deep eyes made me weep
Your
touch your look gave me spasm
My
heart still bleeding, couldn’t take your passion
Hence
I ran
I ran
from your love and my obsession
My
heart couldn’t believe the love you offered
I kept
hurting you and saw you suffer
You felt
trapped, I felt locked
My
mind was numb and my senses shocked
I
asked this question again and again
Am I fair
to you?
Am I
your Man?
And my
mind gave me this answer again and again
No,
you don’t deserve her
Will
you be able to preserve her?
Will
you look after the pieces of her heart?
Will
you be able to restart?
You
hardly manage to let go of the past,
You
hardly manage to breathe on your own
How
will you be her Man?
Will
you ever be able to be a part of her plan?
Would
you be able to give her the due?
Will
you ever stand up and say I do?
I
knew, I would never
And I
ran!
I ran so
you could see a better tomorrow
I ran
so you could be out of my sorrow
I ran
to give you wings
I ran
to give you wins
I ran
to let you fly
I ran
in the night,
To let
you see the day,
I ran
so I could die,
Without
you
I ran,
So you
could live without me
(C) Juztamom 2013
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Beautifully expressed. Sometimes people do run to give others wings, true.
ReplyDeleteThanks Shail :)
DeleteYes sometimes the best gift you can give a loved one is to leave
ReplyDeleteThat was true in my case. Being left made me stronger than ever and sent me off to find my own happiness. Today, I thank the runner.
DeleteAnd, thank YOU for this lovely expression.
xoA
Ritu yes I agree, though it needs strength.
DeleteAnnis thank you so much. I agree sometimes the sad break off that we think would kill us turns out to be the best thing in our life.
DeleteSometimes the medicine can harm too, likewise sometimes love too can hurt; so its best to be away and keep loving.
ReplyDeleteVandana yes so true!
Delete"I ran to give you wings..." - a moving poem of stress and finding a way to relieve the stress.
ReplyDeleteGemma thanks so much :)
DeleteI really like that in the beginning we believe the runner is afraid of her, then ome to realize that he is really afraid of what he is doing to her.
ReplyDeleteKaren thanks so much :)
Deleteya. very true. sometimes it happens.. well expressed.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much Meera :)
DeleteThanks so much Ali :)
ReplyDeleteWow!!
ReplyDeleteyou have expressed true love
Thank you so much Sowmya :)
DeleteThere is a depth of awareness about pain in this poem. I like the idea that the narrator left to give the other wings. Wonderful!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much dear for your wonderful words :)
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ReplyDeleteWise to realize our limitations in relation to others, even if separation is painful.
"But for you,
I ran,
From you"
Yes I agree, sometimes medicines can be bitter but we can't avoid them if we want to be healthy. Thanks so much :)
DeleteA piece of writing that hits on that infuriating and desperate desire to love someone who doe not love you back the same way. I think many of us know this feeling well. this might work well as a spoken word the way it is layed out. Enjoyed it immensely!.
ReplyDeleteThanks dear. I agree there are so many examples of desperate love around me, it suffocates me even thinking about it but I also agree it is not easy to break free, it takes a lot of strength and believe in yourself to do it successfully.
DeleteI once ran from a man because I was the worst thing in his life: a strong woman who would make everything OK. It was like being his mom, and when we had our own baby, that became evident.
ReplyDeleteI ran because I lost respect. Your take, running to give that woman wings to fly, is much more noble indeed. This feels like an ekphrastic prompt, but either way it's luscious. Has the feel of the distance of the runner. Thx for stopping by my blog and commenting, so I could find you! Amy
Wow Amy Kudos! Respect! It is not an easy decision to take, especially with a child but I am glad you took it. I am glad you are leading with a strong example for your child.I agree with you completely!!
DeleteThanks so much for dear for your wonderful comment. Yes it is indeed a very noble act and needs a lot of strength to take such a step!
wonderful momentum!!:)
ReplyDeleteThanks Akila :)
DeleteSfurti .. honestly .. speaking I could relate so much .. at times.. we leave to let live .. as love is all but selfishness !!
ReplyDeleteAwesome I say !
Mysay wow beautiful words...love is all but selfishness..yess it is even in its purest form!!
DeleteSfurti, how well you write. I could visualize and relate to the escapist in us. We run away because we cannot face the truth. We run away because we want to face the truth. We give ourselves pain and want to justify the same. God only knows how justified we are!
ReplyDeleteGeetashree Wow..thank you for such thoughtful and thought provoking words :)
DeleteIts very beautiful !!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks Di :)
DeleteIts very nice !!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks again Di :)
DeleteDon't know what to say but very touching...
ReplyDeletePankti you don't need words to communicate to me :)
DeleteBeautiful concept Sfurti! :) I hope that the man returns back one day with loads of love and affection for her and there will never again arise a situation that demands the man to run away a second time! :)
ReplyDeleteRanjith thanks you. And I hope too but even if he doesn't return I hope he ran away for something good, the girl gets enough strength to pick up the pieces and re start :)
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